These days a part of my work is calling clients in the Middle East. I feel nervous because I can’t follow the accents.

Besides, I stammer all my words because I don’t know the CORRECT interaction and reply, and my hands are always slimy and shaking.

Before I call someone, I take a deep breath and drink a full mouth of water.

It is just conversation, nothing about marketing. I am not afraid of people because I already had been teaching English for years. But how come I could THINK POSITIVE and grab the phone? I prefer texting because it gives me more time to think and edit.

A few moments later, I’m going to write a longer post about my status.

I am watching this video right now and I was infected with… confidence!

I love this feeling because when I am afraid to make mistakes, I ruined everything.

My colleagues and leaders encouraged me I had done far better than most of them, but I think it is far from a done deal. In the future, I will be an International person, so I will never be defeated by just a cold call.

I told my worries to some of my friends on Facebook and Instagram, and I’ve learned it happens when you called people who don’t speak English as their mother language. What I need to do is just repeat or ask them if I had got the right information.

Besides, I found an interesting book, which is an industry English training book, from a chat group. It makes me relaxed because I noticed everyone is learning English.

Moreover, I got a lot of industry and engineering books about oil and gas drilling and waste management. One of the books is very close to my job, named Drilling Fluids Processing. I guess, if I’ll practice my working English and make a new vocabulary list, I am going to start from here.