I haven’t had a chance to really sit down and reflect on my life in a while. But today, I felt a strange sense of numbness. I’m not sure what it’s from, but it’s made me think about my personal life and how I’m spending my time.

I’m an English major, so reading and watching movies are pretty much my two main hobbies. But lately, even those things haven’t been bringing me much joy. I’ve been feeling like I need to do something more with my life, but I’m not sure what.

A few weeks ago, I thought about trying to pick up a new hobby, like biking or yoyoing. But I haven’t even started yet. I’m worried that if I don’t make my hobbies 100% meaningful, then they’re not worth doing. Even when I watch a movie, I feel like I should be learning something from it.

I’m also feeling kind of stagnant with my English learning. I made a plan in early June to practice speaking more, but I haven’t stuck to it. I tell myself that I don’t have time, but I know that’s not really true. I just need to make time for it.

On top of all that, I’ve been putting on weight. I know it’s because I’m not exercising enough, but I’m finding it hard to motivate myself. I’m just so tired all the time.

I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. A lot of college students struggle with feeling like they don’t have a personal life. But it’s still hard to deal with. I feel like I’m just going through the motions, and I’m not sure how to break out of it.

PS: I remember back in the summer of 2022, I could finish a book in two weeks and still have time to play badminton or other sports. The only bad thing was that I didn’t have any money. But I was planning to read more English materials so that I could pass the IELTS exam and get a good job. Now I have a good job, but I don’t have as much time to do the things I used to enjoy.

I’m not sure what the future holds, but I’m hoping that I can find a way to break out of this funk and start living my life again.